Going away

I'm going away for a little bit...  See you all someday soon...

The end of life as i know it...

Yup...  I'm giving up on ever being happy with someone I love...  It's not fair but I can't take the pain anymore...  I had finally found the one person who taught me what love truly is...  And I lost her...  Not through any fault of my own..  Neither was it her fault...  For I know she loved me too...  Let's just say outside factors came into play that neither of us had any control over...  And we both lost...

So where do I go from here?  I haven't a clue...  But I can say honestly that I'm not looking for love any more...  Just friends...  I had found my only true love and just because she's not mine to hold?  It doesn't mean I'll ever stop loving her...

I miss you, my Sweet Dream...  ILU

Sometimes can hurt so much...

Sometimes we want what's important to us...  The things we don't want to live without...  A nice house...  A new car... That once-a-month/week/day trip to our favorite restaurant...  Lots of good friends...  Someone we can love with all our heart...  And who will love us the same in return... 

Sometimes the thing we want most can cause problems...  That house was poorly built...  That new car uses too much gas...  That restaurant gave you food poisoning...  A difference between friends may lead to the loss of the same...  The one you love may break your heart through no fault of her own...  And you may be causing the love of your life so much pain, agony and grief just by being there for them...

Sometimes knowing what to do and doing it are so very hard...

True love? Really?

Just when you've found the love you only dreamed about all your life?  Don't be standing on a rug...  It really hurts when it's pulled out from beneath you!!!

For those who wonder...

Yes, I wonder sometimes too...  I wonder why, after all these years, I finally found love unlike anything I ever thought could exist...  Why every waking moment is centered on thoughts of her?  Why, when she looks my way, my chest feels so full...  And hard to breath...  I wonder how she feels...  But then I hear her say my name...  And I know...  I have found my Forever Love!!!  I love you, Lai!!!

Piss off the world...

Ok, here's s few comments guarantied to get me hate mail...  Though I never read any I get anyway...  No time!  Hehe!

I was just reading the reviews about AMERCANAH...  A book that is constantly described as how a black person is perceived in America...  Now, I may be Canadian but I can still figure out the one thing reviewers and newscasters can't...  It doesn't matter the color of your skin...  People of other different color are going to be treated the same way!!!  Black, white, brown, pink, green...  Somebody somewhere is going to be treated well/poorly/indifferent by somebody else!  It ain't a color thing...  It's a stupid people thing!!!  If America was so down on black people, don't you think the President might have a say in matters?  What was his name again? 

November greetings from the Philippines

Hmmm...  Been a few days, has it?  Well, life's been busy here...  I moved for starters...  From Central Park to one of the Executive Estates in Cabantian...  Beautiful place!  So far, I have a beautiful bamboo Sala (livingroom) furniture and a bamboo bed to match...  No diningroom table, no refrigerator and no curtains!  That's next month...  Along with a mattress!  I hope!  And the air conditioner will have to wait for January...  Lol! 

As for my love life?  As mixed up as ever!  L is confused and scared to feel again...  Though when she describes how she feels?  As if from a romance novel...  She just doesn't know it.  And A...  The one I moved to the other side of the world for?  She's back in my life but gently...  A couple emails apologizing for what she did...  And what did she do?  She got scared.   Think about it...  You're a young woman who's entire life has been either school or looking after her mother...  You've never had a boyfriend...  Never had that romantic kiss...  Never experienced love in a relationship in person...  Even with me except for a few short days...  And then she is expected to move in with a man she's known only by his letters...  I would have been scared too!  So do I blame her?  Not at all!  I just wish she had talked to me about it... So, we are talking...  By email...  Slowly... 

Internet here is really bad...  At least by my pocket WiFi...  Lol! Next month?  I think I need to upgrade..  Probably the PLDT Speedster plan...  50 gig data at 10Mbps - which we all know will be under 1Mbps...  Lol!  But it beats Globe's 3 Mbps for the same price...  Lol!

And, yes, this is November!  I have a book to write this month!!!  I have gotta get busy!!!

One last thing but the most important!  Isabel Nicole was born November 3rd...  Another beautiful little girl - this time to James and Kelsey!  This grandpa spent about 6 hours crying in his chair...