Going away

I'm going away for a little bit...  See you all someday soon...

The end of life as i know it...

Yup...  I'm giving up on ever being happy with someone I love...  It's not fair but I can't take the pain anymore...  I had finally found the one person who taught me what love truly is...  And I lost her...  Not through any fault of my own..  Neither was it her fault...  For I know she loved me too...  Let's just say outside factors came into play that neither of us had any control over...  And we both lost...

So where do I go from here?  I haven't a clue...  But I can say honestly that I'm not looking for love any more...  Just friends...  I had found my only true love and just because she's not mine to hold?  It doesn't mean I'll ever stop loving her...

I miss you, my Sweet Dream...  ILU

Sometimes can hurt so much...

Sometimes we want what's important to us...  The things we don't want to live without...  A nice house...  A new car... That once-a-month/week/day trip to our favorite restaurant...  Lots of good friends...  Someone we can love with all our heart...  And who will love us the same in return... 

Sometimes the thing we want most can cause problems...  That house was poorly built...  That new car uses too much gas...  That restaurant gave you food poisoning...  A difference between friends may lead to the loss of the same...  The one you love may break your heart through no fault of her own...  And you may be causing the love of your life so much pain, agony and grief just by being there for them...

Sometimes knowing what to do and doing it are so very hard...

True love? Really?

Just when you've found the love you only dreamed about all your life?  Don't be standing on a rug...  It really hurts when it's pulled out from beneath you!!!

For those who wonder...

Yes, I wonder sometimes too...  I wonder why, after all these years, I finally found love unlike anything I ever thought could exist...  Why every waking moment is centered on thoughts of her?  Why, when she looks my way, my chest feels so full...  And hard to breath...  I wonder how she feels...  But then I hear her say my name...  And I know...  I have found my Forever Love!!!  I love you, Lai!!!